I just finished watching "Michael Landon, The Father I knew", on television. I grew up with Michael Landon, that is with his T.V. image. The best, I think was "Highway to Heaven".

"Highway to Heaven" was one of the sources that led me to search for the "angel" that watches over all of us. I started reading books, searched out different religions. They all pointed to their version of the way things should be. A lot of people need this type of structure and ëcontrolí. But I needed more. I needed the ëTruthí.

I started reading metaphysical and spiritual books. I even joined meditation classes in a hope to find ëThe Truthí.

This movie sparked something in me. Something I had read or heard. Anyway, at the end of the movie Michael Landon Jr. said that he always loved his father and he wanted him to suffer for leaving them. Then he realized that the only one suffering was himself for the years of anger and hatred he had.

This is where my brain kicked in.

All of mankind has listened to various religions telling them that their religion is the only religion and that the people have to follow their teachings. Mankind has grown with the fear that The Father has abandoned them and they are left to fight for themselves, growing in this knowledge of separation and loneliness.

I realized to night, or re-remembered, that we are never alone. The Father has not abandoned us, it is us who has abandoned The Father. He loves us as much as he always has, if not more. We just donít recognize this love, or donít want to acknowledge this love.

Because we cannot put a physical person behind the name FATHER, we say HE has abandoned us.

Centuries ago we remember who we were. We were, and are, the direct descendents of The Father. Over the centuries our choices of action has led us to falsely believe that The Father has abandoned us.

The Truth is, he loves us. Not just because we are his children, but because he is part of us. Each choice we make, every experience we have, He also has. He experiences our love, He feels our pain, He acknowledges our hatred and fear. And we ask Him for help, He gives it freely.

But you say I never receive help from The Father.

Its there.

If you ask for The Fatherís help, do you listen for it? Do you look into the eyes of a friend for it? Do you hear it in the song of a bird? Or do you wallow in your pain and seek mankind solutions? Solutions that lead you away from the path you were meant to take, the path The Father laid out for you.

But still He loves you, for the choice was yours to make. His answer to your plea for help may have been not what you wanted to hear.

For myself, I have heard the answer to my cry for help many times. Sometimes I listen, sometimes I donít (and kick myself for not listening after). Sometimes I resist what He has asked me to do. I know I should do it, but I am afraid, or I feel that I am not good enough to do it.

The Father knows all my feelings, all my doubts. He doesnít ask anything of me that is beyond my capabilities. He is always with me and will help me wherever I fall short of the task.

I know this. But I still resist. Why?

It comes down to the abandonment syndrome.

Every conflict in the world is based on this one fact. The fear of being abandoned. Some want to rule the world to over come this fear. Others want to control others, and still others want to kill or rob so they can say it doesnít matter to them.

Everything in life is created by the choices we make. The Father has given us the gift of free choice. He hasnít abandoned us, therefor, because of our choices. He loves even more.

It is time to make a choice that is very selfish.

The World is under attack from mankind. Mankind is polluting the air, destroying the land and the animals. Mankind is bringing the World to the point of breaking.

Everything that The Father has created has part of Him in it. Creation itself is a living entity, whether we recognize this living thing or not. It also has free choice.

The Earth is a living Entity. It has, through its own choice, allowed mankind to live on itís surface and multiply.

In the early years the laws of this caretaker roll was taken very seriously. Today, its grab what you can, make a profit for yourself, and donít give a damn about the future, because with enough money you can buy what is needed.

Can you sit in your mansion on the top of the hill and try to buy fresh air to breath? Can you buy unpolluted water for your family to drink? Can you buy laborers to work for you if they are all dead from the pollution that you put into the world?

No, my friends. It will not come to this. Mother Earth, by the Grace of The Father will not allow this to happen.

The Earth is getting very close to the point where it is going to cleanse itself of the poisons that mankind has fed her.

This brings us to the selfish choice we all must make.

We have to say NO!

No to war. No to pollution. No to destroying the Rainforest (Mother Earthís Lungs). No to the slaughtering of animals.

Together we must say NO!

Or together we will be swimming in our own bodily wastes and the tears of our loved ones that we could not protect.